BORED!!!!

BORED!!!!

What do you do when you are bored? I am running out of ideas. Or is it that I am feeling bored too often now? I guess it is the latter that is causing the issue.

At times, my mind just goes blank. Like Siddharth hums the "Randakka" song just like that while in cafe in the "Kadhalil Sodappuvathu eppadi" movie, sometime I too goes to a neutral state. Do I like that? Yes, I do. I do not like it when I am alone.

What do writers have in common? Their inclination towards loneliness? I guess that is one common thing. Or  may be, their mood swings? I sometimes want to be alone, but sometimes i just crave for someone to be near me. What makes people writers? Their innate observation powers? Their experiences? Their vocabulary? Their emotions? What else? I think you will agree with me that a writer should have all these. I have some experiences, if not too many. Am I really an observer? I guess not. But I can say one thing. I am interested in people. I find their lives interesting. Sometimes I wonder how they live. Sometimes, I imagine how they might find the solutions to the problems they face.

What about my emotions? I feel sometimes, as Varun pointed out during our usual friendly coffee break, that I should learn to control my emotions. That was in a different context altogether. (We were talking about my karate. Meanwhile, to let you know my circle of friends here in my office, I am now a part of a small gang of friends who hangs out together for lunch and coffee. Let me introduce Kalpana, Kiran, Varun, Nitesh, and Gokul (and Roshni of course who left the company just few days back). I knew none of them maybe an year back, never thought I will be friends with them, but we did. See, it is all life's twists and turns. And that is something that makes life worth living; because I do not know what lies in store for me the very next day! What if I am in for a beautiful surprise tomorrow?)

My Encounter with Blogging

Have you seen the Hollywood movie "Julie and Julia"? I have! And the concept of Julie blogging did interest me. But then I do not know why I never thought I could do blogging. Why? No answer! Certain ideas just elude me unless someone directs me.

Well, The credit for me starting the blogging goes to Kalpana Soni, my ex team mate, my current cubicle mate and yes, my friend now; that is indeed a logical progress in a relationship. I am grateful to Kalpana for letting this idea into my brain.

My life, what I am now, its mostly because of my friends. They seem to direct the course of flow of my life. Every major happening in my life had someone beside me. And to think I find solitude not boring, makes me a complex kind of person.

I feel, one thing a person should never do, is stop being grateful to those who made you the way you are. It is easy to profess, but how easy it is to practice?

Life just flows in a way that we never imagine. And somewhere during the flow, do we tend to/choose to forget the good things that happened to us because of someone? What is it that keeps the memories inside us alive? Is it the constant calls that we make with our friends? Or is it the social networking? Now, what if I hate both calls and networking and if I have a bad memory and I had forgotten to pen down the beautiful episodes of my life? What will I do?

I would recommend you to read the novel "The sense of an ending" by Julian Barnes. That was one novel that made me think. If the protagonist of that novel faced doubts with the inaccuracies of his memory, I too can face a similar situation. I tell you, its foolish to worry over something that might happen in future. Things just happen and what happens defines you. Some just fail to learn and expand his/her horizon by learning from each happening in their life while others just assimilate their learnings and become a different person altogether. Where do I fall? I guess somewhere in between both the extremes? May be!

No Thought Absurd and No Dream Unachievable?

No thought is absurd and no dream unachievable!

That is what I have been hearing for some time now. But then why my mom tells me not to think or say things like I do because I sound arrogant. Funny that my dream seems achievable to me when my parents feel those are just DREAMS, and dreams do not always work!

I guess then the thoughts/ inspirational lines are just inspirational and the buck should stop there and you should not take it seriously! I feel these inspirational quotes do what they intend to and finally achieves something which a reader never even thought would happen; that is they make you unhappy or depressed at some point in life. I say, these quotes stir up the restlessness to do something different, something more and finally you realize that your life is tied up with something that requires more than just an inspirational quote to break free!